fake LoVe

i dont believe in love anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fake!!!!!n its hurting me too much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...M.e.S.S.y hUh...

too much thing happen in my life lately,....

at first, evrything looks OKAY n i almost believed that i ll end up my life with a good LIFE..

but..im totally wrong, everything changed in a sec..evrything becomes very messy..but i dont mind, i dont care..
no matter what happen.. i have to keep breathing...

yeah..im cool..but the truth is im hurt inside..very badly...again n again n again..

~~u doNt KnOW a Things Bout ME~~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-wSKBNP-pEg&ob=av3e

2nd story i guest!!

mm..xmau ha ceta psai 2nd story...xde mood...xtau la y today ak moody sgt...

bkn apa..rasa kecewa===frust, rasa cm xtau la nk habaq cmna..as usual ak ni mmg slalu sgt ikut hati n perasaan..tu yg jd lagu ni..

apa yg ak sedaq skrg, even ak dh rasa cm dh byk kali blajar from life tp still da byk benda lg yg ak x phm...ak x phm..sgh!x tau nk tnya spa..even ak tnya spa2 pun ak xrasa da org yg bley bg jwpn yg dpt puaskn hati ak..

ak slalu rasa cm ak ni x perlu wujud dlm dunia ni..ak juz layak idup srg2 jauh2 dr org lain..its too bad when ak rasa, evrytym ak heppy de org len yg akn sad..n ak rasa xbebaloi if ak wt org sad sbb tuk ak hepy coz ak xrasa heppy yg ak rasa tu akn thn lama...hu..ssh sgt ke life ni? penat la..

neway..ak rasa..ak xperlu phm..but i need t0 find a way..n ak rasa ak perlu buang jauh2 hati n feeling ak..xperlu la lyn sgt..assume ja ak ni bukan manusia sbb xde hati n perasaan..b cool...

arghh..HATE thiz feeling too much!!!!seriously, feel likes to run away...far far far far far far

WoRking LiFe~~

1st story, nk ceta psai my working life!

ok..now ak keja as test/product engineer @IDT, penang. work as engineer best ke? hu, boley tahan best gk la..sbb byk benda blajar+environment+pressure keja yg x penah ak jumpa tym blajar dlu..

mencabar ke?..mm..boley la tahan mencabar jgk tp still under control la..byk wat mistake tu..as usual la..nama pun bru nk blajar..tp serious byk blajaq dr kesilapan..

working vs study...wat masa skrg ak still rasa keja lg best dr blaja..bkn pe..xyh pulun2 study nk prepare tuk exam..hbs je office hour, ak dh bley lupakan hal keja till next day..xyh pikir2 psai keja dh..so ak ley la enjoi life ak pas blk keja..haha

salary??...even ak puas ht ngn payment yg dberi, tp kta semua tahu kn..byk mna pun duet mmg x ckup if x manage properly..so, skrg ak rasa ak still teraba2 nk manage dwet..byk sgt benda nk bli..bkn keperluan tp kemahuan..yg ni nk beli yg tu pun nak..semua pun nak beli..adoii2..

conclusion: mmg ak hepi ngn keja ak skrg but ak x rasa akn keja as engineer smpai bla2...juz wait n c what happen next..kta hnya bley plan but ALLAH yg tentukan!

story mory

ha..lama gila x update blog ni..ntah tibe2 ari ni tegerak hati nk blogging..ha..tau la bla dh lama x update so mmg byk la story nk story mory...:)

new brand of me!!

..new brand of me!!im 100% totally difference person now..n believe me u wolud not know me anymore..myself also dont know who am i now..

ok!!i working now!!im addicted to sumthing whch makes me feel like im the only person lives in this world..n im keep ignoring what others talking about me..i juz lives my life the way i want to..become more stronger n my heart looks like not intrested with any feeling..

im not really understand myself, but i realizes by this way, my life becomes more easier..no more complicated things in my life..Before i find another way to lives, lets just become this version of me...ENJOY!!!!!!