WELL DONE 1MART!!!

...well done 1mart for the upgrading!!..
wah2...makin maju...skrg ni dh 24 hours and dh de wifi!!..
hopefully next year dh bley d franchaiskn...hehe...

..bodohnya aku...

ok....arini aku rasa aku manusia yg plg bodoh skali kt dlm dunia ni..manusia yg x berguna and slalu menyusahkan org..
ye la...jobless+selalu wat mistake+slalu nyusahkn org+slalu wat org mrh++++++ mcm2 lg la...
adoiiiii...apa yg aku nk buat ni...dlm hati x kira la memberontak2....

argh....nak lari jauh2....nk idup bedikari n kalo bley xnk kaco idup sapa2...biaq la idup srg2 pn xpa..yg ptg ak x nyusahkn sapa2...

to semua yg aku dok nyusahkan skrg...aku mintak maap byk2...ak x bemaksud nk wt cm 2..

bubye semua!!!!!

Radja - Terus Terang.avi

..S.H.A.R.I.N.G...

the truth is i hate sharing!!

i prefer to surrender rather than to share with someone else..

no matter what..i will fight till it is mine or i will just leave it....

peace no war!!

Wali Band - Dik (With Lyric)

'someone' i know love to sing this song....so this song will remind me to 'someone'...hahaha

aku xde perasaan kah??

...well...

mmm...ssh nk cakap..bkn ak xde perasaan..tapi aku dah terbiasa kot sembunyikan perasaan sebenar aku..
seingat aku...mmg dari kecik la ak cmni...sampai sekarang la my mother slalu cakap "kakak..please tell me the truth..what u feel right now..what happened 2 u..juz tell me everything..dont hide anything from me.."...
mmm...

kenapa ak jd cmni??aku pn xtau..my b sbb byk sgt benda drastik yg jd dlm idup aku kot..so ak jd takut sgt nk express true feeling..apa yg aku takut??...ha..mcm2 r aku takut..aku takut terluka+dilukai+melukai+menyakiti+mcm2 lg la...aku prefer pendam je kot apa yg aku rasa + tunjuk yg konon2 aku cool kn...(haha...mmg aku cool pn...so what??)..

advice??ramai gk r yg bg advice kt aku...diorg ckp if kita selalu pendam nnt makan diri...walaupun ak tau advice 2 betui..tp ak still xbley ubah prgai aku yg satu ni..adoiii....so mmg slalu makan hati la kalo cmni...

so, to whom yg may concern, im sorry...aku tetap aku..n please jgn tertipu dgn kecoolan aku 2..walaupun aku camni tapi aku ade hati+perasaan kot...hati yang sgt sensitip kot...ouch!!

"my heart is very fragile... so dont u dare to touch it if one day u want to break it!!"

Maher Zain - Insha Allah | Insya Allah | ماهر زين - إن شاء الله

Maher Zain - Insha Allah lyrics

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on

You feel so lost

That your so alone

All you is see is night

And darkness all around

You feel so helpless

You can't see which way to go

Don't despair and never loose hope

Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3

You'll find your way

Everytime you commit one more mistake

You feel you can't repent

And that it's way too late

Your're so confused, wrong decisions you have made

Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don't despair and never loose hope

Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3

You'll find your way

Insha Allah x3

You'll find your way

Turn to Allah

He's never far away

Put your trust in Him

Raise your hands and pray

OOO Ya Allah

Guide my steps don't let me go astray

You're the only one that showed me the way,

Showed me the way x2

Insha Allah x3

We'll find the way

Insha Allah x3

We'll find the way

Lyrics | Maher Zain lyrics - Insha Allah lyrics

Leona Lewis - Better In Time

Leona Lewis - Better In Time lyrics

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All that I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: x2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do)
It'll all get better in time



Lyrics | Leona Lewis lyrics - Better In Time lyrics

"Animal Instinct"

"Animal Instinct"

Suddenly something has happened to me

As I was having my cup of tea

Suddenly I was feeling depressed

I was utterly and totally stressed

Do you know you made me cry

Do you know you made me die

And the thing that gets to me

Is you'll never really see

And the thing that freaks me out

Is I'll always be in doubt

It is a lovely thing that we have

It is a lovely thing that we

It is a lovely thing, the animal

The animal instinct

So take my hands and come with me

We will change reality

So take my hands and we will pray

They won't take you away

They will never make me cry, no

They will never make me die

And the thing that gets to me

Is you'll never really see

And the thing that freaks me out

Is I'll always be in doubt

The animal, the animal, the animal instinct in me

It's the animal, the animal, the animal instinct in me

It's the animal, it's the animal, it's the animal instinct in me [x2] 

..let by gone b by gone...

..ok...i got this strength from someone..

 " let by gone be by gone.. "

and from now onward, i will not looking back again...

crying

..oh god..im crying again and again tonite...

Secrets - One Republic Official Music Video (HD)

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
'Til all my sleeves are stained red

From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My God, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve

And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Sending it straight to gold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'm 'a tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, all my secrets away

im tired

oh my god...im tired..

tired of pretending that i m ok..

tired of lie that everything will be ok..

tired of living in pain..

its hard for me to breath..

It feel like im going to die slowly..

Everytime I think of what happen to my life live i get dizzy

my heart hurt

i get scared

i get tired

tired of hiding it in my brain and force to never think about it

tired of not being able hold on

hold on to life

to sanity

to happiness

I Wish You Well by Mariah Carey with lyrics

peRanG Dunia Yg pErtama...

...orite2...ak tau ak dh kesuntukan masa...7 days left kot...ak tau rmai yg concern n tgh risau tgk FYP ak yg begerak dgn slownya..ak sndiri pn cuak gk wlaupun nmpk mcm cool hbs kn...
...ni bkn main2..antara hidup ngn mati kot..
ok...dgn ni aku mengumunkan mulai saat ini aku akan melancarkan perang dunia yg pertama dlm hidup aku....perang diantara emosi ak yg x stabil vs chapter 3 FYP...selagi ak x settle chapter 3 arini ak akn mogok lapaq...(adoi...sian perut ak jd mangsa...)...
sekian terima kasih...

Mariah Carey - Bye Bye

"Bye Bye"

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

[Chorus] 

..everybody makes mistakes...

  girls make mistakes...boys also make mistakes...so, why we always blame each other even though we know everybody make mistakes...

..kuat ke saya??...

Pabila saya senyum lebar x semestinya saya gembira...
Pabila saya gelak besar x semestinya saya suka hati...
Pabila saya menangis x semestinya saya sedih...
Pabila saya tidak ambil peduli x semestinya saya x kisah..

perasaan dan hati saya memang x boley diduga dengan keadaan luaran...

hanya TUHAN saja yang tahu apa hati dan perasaan saya rasa sekarang ni..
sebenarnya saya x sekuat n setabah seperti yg org selalu katakan pada saya..
tp i ALLAH saya akan cuba sedaya upaya untuk mengharungi dugaan ni demi untuk kebaikan semua pihak..

..heartbroken...

my wound are self inflicted...

so someday when im ready...

when i have the strength and

when i can breath again..

i will begin to pick up ALL the  pieces that  he left behind...

...soRry...

...i m sorry...sorry2...sorry2...

juz  cant lie to my heart anymore...

it hurt so bad..

..mySeLF!!

ok...my age is 23 years old n im still dont understand myself!!
please...i still confused why i live this way...why i still keep smiling even i know i hurt my own heart so much..
yeah! my be im crazy but im tired already..feeling like i want to fly far away from others..

should i kept live to see others happy?? or should i live for my happiness??

..surat layang kepada hatiku yg terluka...

kepada hatiku...

aku mintak ampun dan maaf byk2 kt kau...aku tau mmg ak byk wat salah kt kau...dari kecik smpai la ke besaq ni ha..aku selalu paksa2 kau buat sesuatu yg kau tak suka...

aku selalu paksa2 kau lupakan apa yang kau plg suka..aku selalu paksa2 kau bencikan sesuatu yg plg kau syg..aku selalu paksa2 kau suka sedangkan kau x suka...aku selalu tipu kau..kononnya kau x sakit tp sebenaqnya aku tau kau menderita,tersiksa...aku selalu utamakn hati org lain sedangkan kau yg sentiasa bersama aku..aku xpenah bahagiakan kau sedangkan kau 

aku sendiri xpaham kenapa aku suka wat kau sedih dan merana sedangkan aku tau aku jugak akan turut rasakan benda yg sama..apa2 pun..aku harap kau paham yg semua ni la dipanggilkan kehidupan....kehidupan yg penuh liku..

biarlah kau atau aku sedih,merana menderita asalkan kita dapat lihat org lain gembira...

sory my heart!!!

..cRAzY!!..

ok!!now im crazy!!!
crazy..how come i live a life without .....
how can i lie to my heart.....
how to forget.......

CRaZy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...meNGhaRgaiNYA...

when someone yg kita love ada kt dpn mata...kita slalu telepas pndang...adakah kita x menghargainya or kita dh rasa ia akn jd milik kita selamanya...tnpa kita sedar.. semakin hari semakin jauh dia dari kita..

bila kita sedar yg kita dh kehilangannya..baru kita mula gelabah...tp..mampu kah kita mengubati hatinya yg terluka n mampukah kita memilikinya semula??...mampukah kita cantumkan kembali cinta yg retak menanti belah??..mampukah kita yakinkan dia yg perkara sama tidak akan berulang kembali..

..no words...

....no words to describe my feeling right now...

..hidup x Selalunya InDah!!..

bgn ja tdo pg ni ak rasa cm sedey sgt2...byk sgt benda yg bermain2 kt fikiran aku..smpai la tebawak2 dlm mimpi...berbaur2 perasaan yg xdpt ak ungkapkn kt sni..my b ak byk sgt fikir yg bkn2 kot..

YA ALLAH...hanya padaMu ak berserah..hanya padaMu ak memohon dan meminta..betapa hina n kerdilnya hambaMu ini..YA ALLAH..ak redha n akur dgn apa yg telah ditetapkan..

YA ALLAH..KAU kuatkanlah imamku n KAU bimbing lah aku kejalan yg benar..Andai ini adalah dugaan darimu..KAU jadikan lah aku hambamu yg dekat dgnMU..

xkira la betapa sedey+upset+risau+mcm2 perasaan lg yg ak rasa..aku mesti KUAT!!i ALLAH..

...weird feeling...

the feeling of 'sumthing' that very closed to u..n u really want to touch n hold it forever..but,its actually an impossible thing to happen..no matter how much u lie to urself, its doesnt work..u cant forget it and its always in ur mind n ur heart..